My Life cant get any better than this...

Hell Yeah !! My life cant get any better than this. I have a loving partner, I have a great team.. Im really feeling the way i should.. ! Thank god ! Must be the prayers that Ive called for.

I treasure our lives alot. Matters to me. Nw my mind is straight. I am focused.

Hahaha...

Thank god i have my awesome friends.. Im over it coz i realized how much I deserve someone better. Yes its true, she said " Think you should find someone better". Aha.. Thank you for opening up my eyes yeah..Someone actually sincerely cared..:)

Hasbi...

Hasbi.. You really got to wake up ur fucking idea. Walan.. Why bother? Of course, a guy who have been trying so hard to gain his confidence, had it crashed in one night.. Oh so freaking awesome. Just for a moment when i thought being nice and sincere will pay off...Hahaz..Thats brilliant bullshit.. Hahaz..I realized that Ive wasted my tears..but haha, cried aniwae, so cant rewind back everything.. Hahaz..


Looks like nw, Ive really got to work back on my confidence , after it crashed horribly into an impregnable titanium wall. U noe, the wall dont even have a dent while the confidence turned into dust. It will definitely be difficult, but i will definitely make it. I know Im strong. I can definitely get through this. Hahaz.

Well this incident opened up my eyes to the world of cruelty or wadever u call it.


Good Night world. Let tmr be a good day for me..Noo..Ill decide whether tmr will be a good day..

haha.. Fucking nice one..really nice one...

Hahaha.. I felt so stupid to actually emo abt it..haha..dumbass.. Totally kena played out.. Nice one Hasbi.. Being too vulnerable.. Being too nice.. Now kena fuck upside down siol. Power lah.. Next fucking open ur eyes ur and see.. The world in itself is nt nice. I so nice for fuck.. Yeah can be nice to the right people.. HAhahaz..Nice one.. Well I think im good enuf and i deserve better, HAhaz.

Aniwaez, Ill be giving myself 2 years to be good enuf and i will try for Nteam. I hope my teammates will be able to guide me along in the process of me improving to the max. Haha.

What eva happens, I still feel very fortunate to have such a loving aunty who takes care of me, have a great bunch of team mates and not forgetting the people at work. This are the people who are keeping me sane.

AND I really hope my bro can join me in i quest to try for the national team. It will be really awesome for brothers to be in the national team together.. Hahaz.

Hahaz, tonite im just gonna fucking run and not waste my fucking tears or emotions on smthing not worth anything. Hahaz.



N TEAM FTW !!! AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, PLK WHOOSH !!!!

She matters so much to me but why cant it just happen.? Im gonna just put in th eeffort and win her back. I need her to noe how much she really matters to me...

For everything that have happend, i guess its just my fault.

I believe she is the girl. Haiz..but who am i right? Do feelings change really that fast? I dunno. Im so torned apart but i just cant say it. Haiz. i jus do not know what to do. Im just lost.

baby

Baby I love you.. I cant bear losing yet you like how i lost my first. Ill really give it time, as long as i can be together with u in the end.

arghh

Im a total screwed up. fuck myself..seriously..

God help me

I really love her..I cant lose her. Ill do whatever it takes.. She needs time, ill give time..

oh gosh..

Yeah..Ive got to really give her time..I mean, i love her.. The more i should try to help her take the stress away... ive got to be understanding.. Be a gentleman.. Ive got to consider her feelings. I cannot be selfish.. I must spare a thought for her. No matter how hard it will be for me, her feelings comes first. She is already hurt. I want her to be happy back again coz i love her. Hasbi..please be patient. Life is full of up and down. just got to handle it like a man.

haiz

Im very sure that ive done the right thing.. Be direct, dunt beat around the bush. If i like her den just tell her, which i did. Gosh i seldom do that but she thought me how to. She is the one who deserves my attention, my love and she is the one to be cherished. Ive never felt so loved apart from my first and only relationship. Now and finally after so long, someone actually reciprocate the same way as the way i feel. Nevertheless, i have no right to violate her personal space that she deserves. I really do hope that this will work out. I believe, ups and downs cannot be avoided, and thats life.. The only thing that i can do is to put in the effort to cherish her the best way i could. I mean, im definitely not the best a man can be but I believe that the effort counts..


Give it time, give it faith, give it trust.

OH GOSH

The girl whom I am lookinf for is actually just right in front of me? how can i be so blind?? She helped me get through tough times..She is definitely the one that i should give my love and attention to.. And of course not forgetting to respect the personal space that she needs as human..I realized how lucky i am today, on th 02 of Nov 2010...hahaz..

Her smile...

I totally love it when she smile..Oh gosh..My soul like vaporize...Holy cow ! Her smile her smile her smile...

haiz

Will this be yet another disappointment.. Why am I so uptight about things. What the fuck am I thinking? Arghh ! Can i jus fucking relax and just go with it.. I must feel fucking insecure... Arghh!
I cant help it but to just falll for her day after day
...arghh fuck...damn...

Damn !!!

How should i Say it !!! God damn it !!!When should i say it !!


Why is it so freaking hard !

The girl...

She is awesome...she is undoubtly attractive.. god..
I just want her..w I want to provide her with the love, security and at the sametime, be the someone whom she can talk to when she is down and at the same time ensure that i will not be over protective...Over protective is bad...Moderate is always good...A little bit of this and that...

I wish i could be the one

How i wish i could be the one when she needs a hug.. It will be damn cool if i were the one u gave her the hug..haiz...How i wish she could open up her eyes real big and see that Im actually in love with her...What more do i need to give? damn...

Im Damn In Love.

God..Every time i see her smile, when she laughs, when she giggles, it totally melt me away. Oh damn. She is simply gorgeous. The dimples at the cheek enhances her facial expression.

Oh damn. She is stuck in my mind.. She got me so worried when she fell sick. Oh damn. What is the meaning of this.?


She brightens my day. Always. How i wishh i can just tell her....Arghh..

The girl i really need...

Ive got to learn from all that shit that have happened in the near past.
But still, I need a girl whom i can love. Who is she? I dunno..


Is it her? Is she the one? I have no fucking idea.

Moved on

Damn....After waiting for so long for that relationship to actually work, I have finally moved on. I guess its a good thing ? I hope its a good thing to have finally moved on. Kinda tired of dwelling over the same issues over and over again.

Not only that, Ive moved on from the nightmares of falling for a girl who thought i might be together with, whom ive also put so much effort into and which turned out to be another huge disappointment. Fuck...

I guess all this didnt work out because im just fucking dumb.. Fucking dumb to get caught in such situation.

Whatever it is im just glad that its over...