My Life cant get any better than this...

Hell Yeah !! My life cant get any better than this. I have a loving partner, I have a great team.. Im really feeling the way i should.. ! Thank god ! Must be the prayers that Ive called for.

I treasure our lives alot. Matters to me. Nw my mind is straight. I am focused.

Hahaha...

Thank god i have my awesome friends.. Im over it coz i realized how much I deserve someone better. Yes its true, she said " Think you should find someone better". Aha.. Thank you for opening up my eyes yeah..Someone actually sincerely cared..:)

Hasbi...

Hasbi.. You really got to wake up ur fucking idea. Walan.. Why bother? Of course, a guy who have been trying so hard to gain his confidence, had it crashed in one night.. Oh so freaking awesome. Just for a moment when i thought being nice and sincere will pay off...Hahaz..Thats brilliant bullshit.. Hahaz..I realized that Ive wasted my tears..but haha, cried aniwae, so cant rewind back everything.. Hahaz..


Looks like nw, Ive really got to work back on my confidence , after it crashed horribly into an impregnable titanium wall. U noe, the wall dont even have a dent while the confidence turned into dust. It will definitely be difficult, but i will definitely make it. I know Im strong. I can definitely get through this. Hahaz.

Well this incident opened up my eyes to the world of cruelty or wadever u call it.


Good Night world. Let tmr be a good day for me..Noo..Ill decide whether tmr will be a good day..

haha.. Fucking nice one..really nice one...

Hahaha.. I felt so stupid to actually emo abt it..haha..dumbass.. Totally kena played out.. Nice one Hasbi.. Being too vulnerable.. Being too nice.. Now kena fuck upside down siol. Power lah.. Next fucking open ur eyes ur and see.. The world in itself is nt nice. I so nice for fuck.. Yeah can be nice to the right people.. HAhahaz..Nice one.. Well I think im good enuf and i deserve better, HAhaz.

Aniwaez, Ill be giving myself 2 years to be good enuf and i will try for Nteam. I hope my teammates will be able to guide me along in the process of me improving to the max. Haha.

What eva happens, I still feel very fortunate to have such a loving aunty who takes care of me, have a great bunch of team mates and not forgetting the people at work. This are the people who are keeping me sane.

AND I really hope my bro can join me in i quest to try for the national team. It will be really awesome for brothers to be in the national team together.. Hahaz.

Hahaz, tonite im just gonna fucking run and not waste my fucking tears or emotions on smthing not worth anything. Hahaz.



N TEAM FTW !!! AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, PLK WHOOSH !!!!

She matters so much to me but why cant it just happen.? Im gonna just put in th eeffort and win her back. I need her to noe how much she really matters to me...

For everything that have happend, i guess its just my fault.

I believe she is the girl. Haiz..but who am i right? Do feelings change really that fast? I dunno. Im so torned apart but i just cant say it. Haiz. i jus do not know what to do. Im just lost.